It's the unknown...

I keep thinking that I am going to blog a little and then I never sit down to actually write. I end up being stuck on facebook for like 12 hours. Life was easier when I was fasting from facebook, but I enjoy being connected with people once again.

The time has come for more change in my life. I really do like change, and so it is not a freaking out stage that I am in, more of just an unsure stage. It would be enough if I was just changing apartments....but I am not. I am changing the grade that I teach, apartments, getting a new roommate and friends are moving away all in a month. Oh and my little sister is getting married. Hmmm.....did I also mention that the country I am living in is currently in the middle of political unrest, as in today they start shooting things and in the past couple of weeks bombs have gone off and the BTS has closed a few times.

So....change.....good and bad.

Sometimes I feel that when I blog I write too much and then other times, maybe I don't write enough. I guess that is the point of blogging though, right. To say things that you wouldn't normally say, but also to not say things that you probably would say without realizing that you shouldn't.

So....the first thing....saying good-bye to friends. I have felt myself really pulling away this week. I can make a million excuses why I am doing it, but the truth is that I don't like pain. You see most of the time I am the one to leave, not to stay. In fact I think that there has only probably been once or twice when I have stayed in a place and someone else has left. And usually I am not far behind to leave. I know that I am doing it, and yet I can't seem to stop it, how do you say good-bye well? Even, yes I do know that we are going to see each other again, I have no doubt, but you know things change. Life is different. They have been the people that I have cried with and laughed with and got lost with. They were the ones that were here to experience "culture shock" together. And now...we must say g00d-bye. That is hard, for no matter how much facebook connects you...it can't take the place of real conversations and time spent actually together!

Moving to fourth grade, is going to be quite a jump. I have sort of gotten used to my 6th graders and their various temperaments and quirks. I have grown to love middle schoolers through this experience, and you know what? That is something that I never thought I would say. I understand now, not totally...but I get the reason for jr. high and for people that have a passion for this age group. I am going to look forward to seeing who they become and how they impact this world! Meanwhile I am going to get ready for elementary school again....excited and nervous!

Apartments....really excited about this change and ready to tackle communication and get going with some genuine community!

So...change, yeah I kind of seek it out, but it doesn't come without a little hesitation and a lot of prayer. As I think upon these changes, the biggest one will be at the end of this month. When I spend the last week of my sister's single life with her. WoW! My little sister is getting married. I am so excited for her and maybe even a little jealous. She will make a great wife and I look forward to a niece or nephew sometime in the next couple of years! Not trying to rush things though. I am going to enjoy the time with family..although that also will change. Now it will be shared time for us and joining to families together in a way. What a way to start the summer!

Now if this political unrest would just get under control!


Change...I love it! But it is tough sometimes.