As I follow my heart loves...

I had a conversation with someone this week. This person is one of my good friends, but something that she said struck me. She told me that maybe I don't want to share everything with everyone that I write in my updates. As I thought it over at first I thought maybe she is right, but then I have been spending a lot of time in the Word and really the one Word that keeps popping out is LOVE. To love people means to share with them. To share the ups and downs of this life. To let them know that no matter how many times they hurt me, how much they lie to me, how far apart we grow. I will love them. I will love them because they are my family. Whether here or there...I will love them because I know their voice.

This blog is called following the King. As I sit about what makes me a follower of Jesus, sometimes my doubt overwhelms me. But then I have weeks like this one. Where I get to wake up whenever I feel like it, have lunch with friends, work out for 2 1/2 hours and decide when I am going to go home. I get to rest and relax because He is good.

As I ponder what it means to Follow the King...I think that one of the biggest examples of this is to trust Him. Not trust the people around me, but to trust Him. I have been pretty sad these past few weeks, since finding out that someone I confided in spilled my life story to just about everyone that I know. It really hurts me a lot. Not that I haven't had friends do this before, but this time I really felt it was a stab to my heart. It wasn't just about this one person telling, but the chain of events that followed. For one person told another person, and then that person told another person and before you know it 20 people know about your personal life that you only ever intended one person to know in the first place. It is my own fault really, for I didn't really know the person that I was trusting. It still hurts though, and to make matters worse it has caused other friendships to be lost. Not that I don't still love those friends, but the trust has been broken. I will trust again, because trust does not come of my own accord. It comes from the Lord! So as I look up...I begin to heal and to trust!