People who claim one thing and do the other...

Here I am at a school that is great, working with administraters that are great. There is just one thing that is not so great. Feeling trapped in a competition. A competition for what students like what teacher the best. I don't want to be in this competition. In fact I want to run the other direction the farthest away from it that I can, but I don't know how. I shouldn't be feeling this, not here. Why is it that we (as christians) have to make everything a competition. That is not what Jesus did or who Jesus was. It doesn't matter who is the most popular. It is funny because we are trying to teach the 6th graders this concept, yet adults don't even know it either. So how am I supposed to teach 6th graders something that adults don't even understand? I guess just show grace and mercy and leave the rest up to God. That sure is hard sometimes though, when my flesh cries out that I want to do something.

People are also not living out what they say they believe. Culturally teachers are held to a higher standard around here, not like in the states. This higher standard should make us long to live out a better life as an example. Then why are a majority of teachers that I know stuck in a cycle of the world? It just does not make sense to me. There was a time when I longed for those quick-fixes, but if I am truly desiring the Lord then I am not going to want to satisfy that longing any other way. Yet I look people in the face every morning that are going to work to teach kids about Jesus and turning around to do the opposite of what they say....something to think about!