Don't take time

It occurred to me tonight as I sat listening to Ravi Zacharias that I do not often spend that much time listening to God. Yes God can speak through people and quite often He does, but He also just wants me to listen for His own voice. To just hear Him as I spend time in His word but also just listen to Him. There is a particular thing going on in my life right now that I really want clarity for. I do not feel that I am pushing God this time, when in times before I feel like I have pushed specifically in the direction that I wanted. In this particular situation I feel that I have been open to either the door being opened or closed, but I feel like it is just slowly creaking. The creak doesn't seem to be going one direction or the other just yet. So I can not be sure of what it truly taking place. As I sit and wait, I wonder what God has planned for my life. Tonight He totally blessed me with just allowing me to be in His presence. To just sit at His throne and hear Him. I didn't have to worry about everyone else, but He just opened my eyes to see Him. I want more of those times. I long to just be in His presence.

I am going to make more time for that. Even if it means less time for others. For now I want God to lead...I don't want a competition about who is most popular or has the most friends. I just want to be in the throne room of my Father. I just want to be near Him and know Him more.