In the midst of waiting.....

Right now Thailand especially BKK is in the waiting period. There are supposedly thousands of protestors "red shirts" headed this direction. Now at the beginning of all this drama I was thinking it just seemed like all the times before, yet this somehow feels different. It seems that everything before has been building up to this weekend.

Pondering what this means. To the people fighting for what they believe in. This man who seems to be leading from out of the country, kind of amazes me. I don't know that I can ever say Thai people aren't passionate about a cause. I think no matter what side of the conflict they are on it shows they are passionate people.

It makes me realize if that passion could be directed to the ONE who really matters, how much this country would change. Well how much any country would change for that matter. When I think about the driving force behind each of us, I have to wonder if we really know what it is we are fighting for?

We are sometimes, at least I think lost in this battle. We fight and fight, only to realize that we were either
A: fighting for the wrong cause or
B: fighting by our own means (when all along someone was standing right next to us ready to lead, to gain control if we just let Him.)

I find myself too often standing in the middle of the battle only to find out that it is the wrong battle. The battle isn't in the people that I come in contact with everyday. The battle is inside myself. The reason I see people in a negative way, or think they are annoying me. Well, it has to do with what is inside of me. For if I was looking at those around me and seeing them the way Jesus does then the battle would cease to exist. If I was truly so in tune with Jesus that He was the author of my every thought, then nothing would be left of myself, of my human desires.

I guess what I am saying is this. The conflict going on right now has reminded me that God is in control. No matter what types of things are happening, the peace I have and live by is not a peace like the world has or wants. It goes far beyond that to the depth of being a part of who Jesus is. For Jesus has already won the victory. If I am seeking to win His way, then I too have the Victory for I have it through Him.

My thoughts and mind are going to always be there, struggling on the inside to not let those human desires take over. I take courage though and confidence in the fact that Jesus is there, as the Holy Spirit to lead me and guide me. When I make mistakes, well that is just part of it, right? I think it just depends what I do with those mistakes and where I go from here. Waiting for His return, but while I wait...I'm going to wait in Him.